Provision

I barely have it in me to write this right now, but have to share.

Yesterday Gianna and I go grocery shopping, we were there for well over an hour. She started crabbing toward the end and I was ready to get out of there, go home and deal with my headache, I hadn't had any headache medicine at home and needed to get home and take some.

We wait in line, get all the groceries rung up and in my cart, and then I write the check, and they won't accept it. Check number is too low. And I can't find my debit card. I wanted to cry, but I didn't. Just sucked it up and in disappointment walked away from the cart, got in the car empty-handed, and went home with my pounding headache, and no Tylenol.

I called my friend who prayed for my headache and I took a hot bath and got some relief for a bit, but it came back later and stronger and I had nothing. In the middle of the night I took one of Jason's vicodin and it wasn't helping. Then I started freaking out a little like what is wrong with my head! But thank God for Phillipians 4:6-7, which always has brought me peace in moments of anxiety.

So this morning I'm running late and didn't stop on the way to church for pain medicine.  I did have a credit card of mine Jason found though. After church I stop for gas and couldn't WAIT to get to the store, get my pain meds and stuff for dinner and go home and relax with a heating pad on my neck as my friend at church had recommended.

And the card. was. declined.

Turns out it was an expired card. I had 5 bucks in my pocket for gas, but the thought at not being able to go get my excedrin and some groceries for dinner was such a bummer. I was on the verge of some serious tears. I sat in my car and prayed. I said God pleeeeeeeeese, I don't know how but PLEASE make a way for me to just go get some excedrin and something to make for dinner. It may not seem like that big of a deal, but in that moment it just felt hugely frustrating and like more than I could take. Like realllly????? Omgsh.

I just sat there for a minute with my face in my hands and then I started rummaging around in my car.

And I found $15 sandwiched in some papers in the glove box!!!!!!!!! And its easy to dismiss and say oh I left that in there, which I'm sure I did, but the bottom line is I was sitting there with nothing, no money, and I prayed and plead in desperation for God to make a way for me to get what I needed. And within a minute I had it! So awesome.

Then right after I walk in Meijer, this woman shopping says hey, I was in line behind you yesterday, you left your daughters gloves in the cart! So I go to customer service and they say they don't have them. I see the lady who rang me up and she comes over and finds them and I tell her my 15 dollars in the glove box story :o)

And it was a good lesson for me to shop with that 15 dollars. I had to weigh out the few veggies I bought, I bought one big potato and plan to mix that in with some instant potatoes. I had to add everything up to the dollar. Some people live like that everyday. Even though my financial situation isn't the greatest because we have a good deal of debt, we are blessed to have jobs and the ability to buy the food we need regularly, and this made me more appreciative.

And God showed himself in a big way to me today.

And yesterday I was also going to buy a booster seat because Gianna is too big for her carseat and its a huge unneeded added frustration getting her in and out of my car. I had decided ok this is enough of this. And do you know that I said nothing about it to Jason, but last night he offered me his booster seat from his car? Just to be nice!?

God is good. And though the last day and a half has been filled with frustration and an aching head, He has shown Himself to me in the little things, and I feel loved, a little humbled,  and a little more faith-filled today. : )

And now my pork chops are in the oven, Gianna just laid down for a nap, and I'm going to go lay down with my head on a heating pad and relax!